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Wise Eating, Self-Acceptance, Heart Nourishment & Presence


New Year’s Resolutions. Ugh. Do you make up rules that you break within days, hours or minutes? “I will not eat sugar, all year, or maybe never, starting now.” It lasts until you crave, or hunger, or question, “Who created this stupid rule?” 

It happens to everyone, I assume, at some point, that moment when we say, “I’m not doing that.” Rebellion starts early as we separate into our own person. At two years old, we resist the advice of others at our first inkling of “You’re not the boss of me.”

For many of us, self-determination appears in adolescence, when we realize we are not the same person as those persons who have been in charge of us. 

For some of us, stepping into ourselves and out from those who raised us, comes later; our independence, creativity, our deciding our own values, which may or may not match what we had learned. It might go like this: “Everyone in this town plays golf. Not me.” Or “Everyone in this family attends Mass every Sunday. I’m not going anymore.” Or, “My high school friends are going to college. Higher education? Not for me.” Or, “I know I could have a secure future in the family business in Maine, but I’m moving to New York City to be a Broadway actor.” 

Telling people can be tough. They offer their fears: “You’re converting to Judaism!? What if there’s another Holocaust and they come and take you and your family?” Or, “Really? You’d rather be an underpaid teacher than a doctor?” 

No one directly makes you wrong, not exactly, but you understand what they mean when they say, “But you’re not good at painting…. or writing…. or acting…”   Or, “Social work? What do you know about helping people?” 

You don’t have answers for the doubters. They might even be right that you have no idea what you are doing. But being good at what you choose for yourself wasn’t ever the point. I am thinking of the quote by Blaise Pascal,French mathematician, physicist, religious philosopher, and master of prose: “The heart has its reasons that reason does not know.” 

So, there’s that, the difference between what the heart wants and reason. Which leads us back to New Year’s Resolutions. The voice in us that invents rules can trigger the same, “I’m not doing that,” that we have practiced since our terrible twos. We vow, “I won’t eat sugar. I will exercise every day.” Then, because those voices are not the boss of us, we inhale a pan of brownies and blow off the gym. But the pendulum swing to New Year’s Rebound-Rebellion against our concocted rules is not freedom, and not aligned with why we made the rule in the first place. Maybe we wanted greater vitality. Maybe we ached for less self-judgment. What was our goal? What was our big “why?”

This year, what if we adopt the words of 13th century mystic Rumi? “No more advice. Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love.”  

Even telling ourselves what we really love can be tough. We might meet our own inner doubter, the voices of fear saying, “Really? What if……….?” 

Maybe in 2023 we resolve not to make ourselves wrong any more. Maybe if we let ourselves be drawn to the reasons of the heart, we don’t need resolutions, rules or advice, even our own. Maybe we need deep inner listening for the feeling of the pull toward what we really love. 

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  1. This is just a beautiful notion: let yourself be drawn by the pull of what you love…instead of being pushed by what you want to conquer. Thank you for this Susan.

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